I've tried several times to write something new here, but every time the words seem to play hide and seek and I find my self sitting here with my head full of thoughts but my computer remains blank. There is something that lingers, something that's waiting far beneath and I don't know for how long it will stay away. I have a thought, a mission, a feeling, waiting to be revealed, but for the moment not even I know what I'm waiting for.
There are so many things I wanna do with my life, so many things life seems to want to do with me, but still I cannot find my straight and honest way of living. Where am I supposed to be? Is it here in my town, studying nursery-school, preparing to take care of patients, to act in a concrete manner. Or is it maybe in a more indirect way; is writing my destiny? Am I supposed to do my part of living and life-changing though the written word of a journalist? Is that a more suitable path for me, or is it just an imaginary wish?
My life is full of bubbles and bounces, and I keep tossing myself in different directions each day. I wanna do something great, I wanna make a change, but where should I go? Only God knows, they say, but if I claim I really wanna know; would he give me a hunch maybe?
// Innie